He Was!!

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HE WAS!!

Even more of me than  ever was
Ever more complicated than complicated ever does

He was. Yes he was! It was he.

In love with the very perplexity that is he
Without this experience I'd be lost to the knowledge of what love really be

A beautiful mess and I am embracing every part of what I see.
That was he and that was me
To him I lived the imperfect, perfectly.

He Was. Yes he was! It was he.

Complicated was us yet simple at the same time.
maybe it was just the wrong season there is no reason or rhyme

A love for him so unconditional that defies all logic and is not bound by time
filled with so many emotions by words it is hard to define.

He was. Yes he was! It was he.

Leon Timbo

Here is a Artisit that I saw on the new artisit spotlight on Bobby Jones  Gospel in like 2006. Here was the song he sang I thought he was pretty awesome.  Can't say that I have seen or heard much from him since... but I think he is rather fantastic.... check him out :)

Count It All Joy

Did it ever occur to you that some jobs, relationships, material possessions, friendships and situations are just for a season in your life. They are not meant for the long term or to stay but to add or subtract something and leave you with a leasson learned. The repeat button has been pushed yet again on this test in my life.

It occurred to me that maybe this is not something that we should toil over, feeling sad as people and possessions or even as positions exit our path. Perhaps we should take a deeper look at what it means and ask ourselves:
                        

       *What is God trying to show me through this test?

       * What is God trying to reveal to me about myself in relation to this event?

       *What are some things that I could have done differently in the situation?

Dare I say that we should count it all joy when trials come. These uncomfortable moments of being pruned to bear fruit help us to weed out people, places and things that really do not have our best interest at heart.  Count it all joy that we have a saviour who cares enough about us to concern himself with what is troubling us. One who is a guardian of our heart and knows what is best. He is constantly strengthen us through the test and trials of life making us as a tree planted by waters not bending or breaking under the uncertain pressures of life.You have to be tried by fire to come out as gold. This is the part that never feels good but produces fruit and builds character.

Take a step back and evaluate the situation. Were the people, places and things that have recently exited your life building you up or bringing you down? Are they helping or hurting? Lastly ask yourself are you better off without them?

If you are unsure what the purpose is of what you are going through or what God is trying to show you in the grand scheme of things.... just ask! Begin to talk to him and ask him. This open dialogue is referred to as prayer... lol :) and I don't know about you but I don't do it as much as I should so take a crack at it.....

[ Insert prayer here :) ]



Good Music

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a serious lover of music!!! There is an artist name Anthony David he used to sing back up and write for India Arie and he is simply amazing I love his voice Then there is Algebra also an Atlanta native and is equally as wonderful. I absolutely Love Neo soul music and a coworker of mine introduced me to this new some by them instantly looooved it.... so I decided to share. Shouts out to Krys Nicole of www.thicksational.com !

Enjoy!!

Bag Lady!

Just wondering if anyone else out there has felt short changed by someone you love and care about? Do you feel like maybe he or she has been in a bad situation or a bad relationship or just had some plain ole jacked up experiences and you are paying for someone else's mistakes? Maybe you felt you could love them beyond their hurt! Have you sacrificed a lot to not even reap a fraction of the good love, positive energy and time and attention that you sowed into the relationship? Do you feel spiritually exhausted from fighting tooth and nail and hanging on by a thread waiting for this person to live up to even a small percentage of the potential you originally saw in them?

I have been there more times than I care to admit! Maybe you are there now. You feel frustrated all worn out. Maybe you are in a hurting place where you can't even pray for yourself. I thought that when this test came around again that I would sure enough pass it b/c I have been there and done that. We all know the enemy is crafty and he will take the same ole same and dress it up and put a spin on it just to fool you again.Thank God for family and friends that can help to remove the blinders and help you to see more clearly.

Here is the advice my older cousin had to offer:

Hmm, well that's usually how those things go. Word of advice, if it's been this long, there's really nothing to figure out about the whole "us" thing. The only thing you have to do, if you haven't already, is to speak your truth. Your truth comes from your heart and what you want/need as a woman. Once this is spoken, the next question is does he qualify and only you can answer that. Relationships are all about timing. For instance, I love chocolate and when it's that TIME of the month, I crave it...even though I may not need it. Yet at the TIME I want it so bad. On other days, I still like chocolate but I'm able to think clearly and recognize that I may not need it at that TIME. It doesn't mean that sweet chocolate is a bad thing but just at this TIME in my life, given the fact that I want to get in shape, I'll have to limit my chocolate intake. If you're trying to get your life in shape; mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, that "chocolate" is not good for you at that time. Some men are just like that chocolate; sweet, smooth, and such a rush at those times that we want them but they cause us to have extra baggage (weight) when we don't know when to limit our fill of them.
Treat him like that chocolate but never allow him to cause you to have baggage. If he fits into the life that you're shaping, he's worthy, otherwise he is not what you NEED.

So today I own my truth and I accept it! As they say Truth hurts, but it is what it is. I am not bitter I am better with every measure. Thank you cuzzo for the Advice I love you :)

XOXO Patrice Ayanna

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