So here it is 2016 and I am still trying to figure out where
2015 went. Honestly 2013-2015 has been a bit of a sh*t storm for lack of a
better term. However a midst of all the
toils and snares I am still here and still standing clothed in my right mind
(for the most part) so God must really have something important in store for me.
They say that he will never put more on you than you can bare, well I tell you
the insurmountable amount of trials that I have faced over the last few years
have been seemingly unbearable and overwhelming to say the least. I’ve loved I’ve lost and I have gained a lot
of wisdom in the process. So what’s in my rear view this year you ask? The
answer? almost everything!
I now have no parents as I buried my Father the week of
Christmas. I thought to myself well what now? What do you do? Where do you go?
Through the process of my father’s illness I toiled with a myriad of emotions
questioning God and his timing and why this was happening to me again and so
soon. Asking God why am I experiencing
trial after trial. What I have learned is this. There are very few things in
life that are certain… and one thing you should know for sure is that death is.
It doesn’t matter your socioeconomic status, religion, or any other
demographic… as sure as you live you too will die. Now this is not to sound
extra emo or be a Debbie downer but let’s face it, it’s the truth!
Upon arriving at this obvious conclusion “only death is
certain” an amount of peace and freedom washed over my being. Know this… not a
job, nor career, woman or man, relationship or friendship, money or health is a
guarantee! However there is freedom in that, the positive to that is that if
you have health and wealth, friends and family that love you and you have all
that you need and maybe even some of the things you want… you are blessed
beyond measure.
I hate to make New Year’s resolutions but I will certainly
make life changes! If there is anything that death has taught me … is the power
of letting go. When you have suffered major loss you recognize that “things”
just aren’t as important So this year as we have transitioned into 2016 here
are something’s I am letting go…..
1)
TOXIC
PEOPLE! (hey you don’t like me and that’s ok… Bye Felicia)
2)
Unnecessary
spending (making it rain in a thrift store near you)
3)
Stuff (I am a pack rat… there I said it)
4)
Negative thinking and worry (anxiety you gotta
go)
Going forward I will …..
1) Work
Harder on building my brand
2) Try
and eat better and exercise more
3) Prioritize
people who love me most
4) Vacation
more
