Pressure to Produce

Pressure to Produce

As I sip and enjoy my morning cup of coffee, I decided to write. I don’t write much anymore, not because I have lost a love for it, but maybe due to lack of time and discipline if I am being honest. Every year for maybe the last 10 years I have written a yearly recap called “What’s in your Rear-view”. This year I had every intention of doing the same but time escaped me, days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months and now it is April and we are in a middle of a global crisis. For many of us the crisis is not just global it is within ourselves.  

I say all that I have said to say this, be gentle with yourself you are doing the best that you can with what you have. Although I have been fortunate enough to remain employed during the pandemic, I still feel the angst and some of the pressure that maybe many of you do to be over productive and take advantage of this time. I have noticed via social media that there is an extreme push to produce books, business, and blogs or just be extremely exceptional at something, when many of us are trying to navigate mental health and just stay sane and positive during this tumultuous time.

Don’t fake the funk! Don’t feel pressured to produce. If you managed to wake up be grateful that you did and manage the needs of yourself and your family that is just fine.  If you only use your gifts and talents as a creative outlet to help you to navigate through anxiety and depression through this time, there is nothing at all wrong with that. If you feel like sharing your creativity in the form of content, great! No Pressure.  Take time to reflect, recharge and ramp up! You got this!!  We have never lived through a global pandemic before and there is no manual on how to successfully navigate this! If your body needs rest, REST! The most important thing that this crisis should produce is a healthier more whole version of you.  When you show up as your most confident, healthy, healed and whole self the content (or whatever your thing is) will naturally flow from that.

We are in this together,

XOXO……. AYANNA   

What's in your Rearview 2018: Forward Only

Happy New Year !!!



Ok, I know I am beyond late, but such is my life at this point (giggles in overworked and underpaid). In the spirit of growing stretching and evolving I am trying to be a little easier on myself in reference to not meeting goals and deadlines. 2018 was a year of recovery for me. I found a bit of financial freedom, recovered my love of creating and gained more hope for a more positive future. I found that gratitude is a vehicle that will compel you into the future and help you to uncover your greatest self and in that I have adopted the philosophy of FORWARD ONLY.

I am not big on concrete new years resolutions but I do believe in self reflection and continuing to work on and improve yourself. I made 5 goals they are more of a focus to assist me in moving in the direction I know I am called to be in. I am going forward only I will handle today, today and deal with tomorrow then FORWARD ONLY. In gratitude I am looking at each day as a chance to begin again. So here are my top five to do's for the new year.

1) Be Intentional (about everything)
2) Don't be afraid to let go (of anything or anyone)
3) Mindful spending
4) Produce Creatively
5) Life Experiences vs. Stuff

I hope that you are setting goals, and remaining hopeful for your future. I pray that this year brings you to the greatest happiest version of yourself... Remember Forward only!!

What's in your rearview 2017: Start, Stop and Continue

Happy New Year!!!

2017 has provided a number of lessons in love and life and although the pruning was painful I am thankful for the progress. Now we all know by now that I don't exactly do New Year resolutions but I am always in a perpetual state of self improvement. 2017 was a year of  rebuilding and reclaiming my time! So this year my "What's in your rearview" will look a lot more like a START, STOP and CONTINUE. What is that? Well I am glad you asked if you have never used this as a work/relationship or therapeutic tool it is what behaviors, patterns or things will I choice to stop... start... or continue. So here it is

In 2018 I will ...

START

Praying more often and journaling. I will start to prioritize myself, and self care. Often times in our quest to love and support people we loose sight of what we want and need and slow down on achieving and or setting personal goals. This year I will make an concerted effort to not only push to achieve more just for me but also say NO more... to others and yes to myself. Being consistent is the key. Consistency with better eating habits and working out so that I am always bikini ready lol which leads me to TRAVEL. Traveling more (perhaps solo travel) is always a goal  and saving more money is also high priority because lets face it without the coins you cant travel.

 STOP

Stop unnecessary spending ... in order to travel more achieve some of the other goals I have for myself I will need to be more intentional in regard to my spending habits. I have found that emotional spending leads to the clutter and my earnest prayer is to minimize and clear the clutter in my life mentally, physically and spiritually. In clearing that space I will stop holding on to negative memories, people, behaviors and or attitudes.  I will make every effort to stop comparing myself to others.... this to me is also a form of self care. God is in control not my will ... not my time but his.... my journey may not look like everyone else's but I need to stay the course, just because it may take more time for the things I have prayed about to materialize doesn't mean that God didn't hear me!

CONTINUE

I will continue the grind. I will continue to create content from a happy place. I will continue to support those who support me. I will continue to make positive strides toward being my best self and always look for opportunities to show gratitude. My mother used to always say... Good, better, best, never let it rest, until your good is better and your better is your best! Keep Pushing Forward!!

Love Always

Patrice Ayanna

An Attitude of Gratitude

An Attitude of Gratitude 

Life is filled with so much transition. Daily there are ups and downs and the path does not seem as clear as maybe it once was ,but there is hope.  Well, at least I have hope 😊

I am truly beginning to see how much power we have in our words and with our thoughts. Yes God is our creator and governs our lives but he gives us free will and choices.  We can choose to be happy we can choose to be set free or we can continue to be a hamster on a wheel running an endless circle of self-doubt and toxicity. We have a choice and today and every day I choose life.

In life there a number of things that are beyond our control and situations may be difficult but we have the power to change things for the better even if it takes what seems like a lifetime. You can make small changes to your everyday just by taking your thoughts captive and choosing to think positively and see the good in the situation. If you cannot see the blessing in something look for the lesson I assure you there always is one .

I personally have spent the better part of 2-3 years so angry and filled with anxiety over things that I can not change. What I can do is take the lesson from each situation that seemingly tried to break me and move forward to conquer fear and  doubt and live my best life. I found myself rather frustrated with finances and career issues but these are all things that I have the power to change. Where should we start? PRAYER and meditation! Don’t worry this is not just my advise to you but also is a note to self  😊 My plan is to make gratitude my attitude!

In life I am learning that your attitude determines your altitude with a lot. Although I consider myself to be a positive person and I try to be a light to others I went through and am coming out of some very dark circumstances. I am Alive! I am clothes in my right mind, employed and I am not hungry... and for that I am thankful. Give your hurt and disappointment over to the Lord (release that negative energy) pray and plan… YOU CAN DO IT!!! The only thing hindering you from being the best you….. is YOU! Join me this August as I determine everyday to make gratitude my attitude!

Love Always

Ayanna Piranha

What's In your Rear-view 2016

What's In Your Rearview

Welp here we are in 2017. We made it through to the other side. For some 2016 was a year of increase ... balance and peace for me on the other hand 2016 was a ugly, rude , cantankerous and petty B*TCH!!! I am glad she has found her some business and moved on !!

I buried my father, went through a bad break up, 3 job changes a move, and at least 3 "friendships" lost! Although I strive to remain a positive happy creator this year was rough. Life will always remain a lesson or a blessing... this year was filled with many of both.

2016 transitioning into 2017 to me is more of a whose in your rear-view versus what. However I resolve to move forward with positive vibes. I wont do the  new year resolution thing because that is just not my style as you all know. There are a few people places and things that I am leaving in 2016 GLADLY!


The List of let Go is as follows............

ANYTHING or ANYONE TOXIC ....... adios Felicana

No GMO no Lame-O... people will not support you will talk about you laugh at you and will just run all over you and drain thee entire HELL out of you if you let them! If someone missed the opportunity to love you correctly, support you and be there for you  in the first place take that as a sign that they do not value you, love them with the love of the Lord  and give them the gift of goodbye. Life is too short to be unhappy in a relationship, on a job  or just in general. Value yourself  enough to choose you!!

Good Bye financial distress..... This year has been filled with a special kind of BS on the job front... unfortunately in Atlanta  it can be about who you know and how well someone likes you if you keep or get a job. The obvious solution to that is the side hustle until you can work for yourself..... I am working on a business and building my brand in the new year..... much of my focus will be put here! Subscribe to my YouTube channel so I can get my check please and thanks ...lol

Hello New experiences ....... literally the world is your oyster we have access to so much all we have to do is inquire ... God willing this year will be filled with much more travel ! I want to make connections that will catapult me into the destiny I was meant to achieve.

As selfish as it may seem this will be a great year to focus on me and getting my self where I want and feel I need to be and he self improvement is never a bad thing. This year I will focus on me and rebuilding from the bottom to the top.  #ForwardOnly is  my motto for this year and its major moves only from now on #MMo_Life!


blooming effervescently in his glow.........

Patrice Ayanna

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